There Will Be A Reckoning

Maybe just not the one you hoped.

I was talking to a friend last week about a settling of accounts. I don’t want to expose who this friend is for the sake of privacy, but I want to acknowledge that my friend has suffered the most of anyone I know, unacceptable circumstances of a heinous nature due to Covid hysteria. My friend didn’t lose a business, a car, a home or heaven forbid, a relative to the insane policies of government. It was far worse than that.

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Death and loss are final. The facts are what they are, and we face them even though we don’t want to. We start the grieving process. We acknowledge the loss, and eventually, we move on.

But in my friend’s case, there is no finality. All the people are still there. In this case, the attitudes and sentiments of my friend about government at first, and later Covid guidelines were used against this friend in court, enabling the ex to take full custody, restraining orders in place even. My friend can’t even contact the child who was young and impressionable at the time to explain what happened. The longer my friend is in this position the more detached and estranged the child becomes, assuming as told by family that my friend is or would be a danger to the child. It’s not unlike when a Mormon Fundamentalist, Hassidic Jewish Community, Mennonite Clan or Scientology Practitioners will shun, reject or isolate a family member while poisoning the children against anyone who dares to leave their cult.

We are told in society that a good parent will never stop trying to protect and care for his or her child. A parent separated from the child will move heaven and earth to be with his or her child. However, in my friend’s case, the harder or more aggressively my friend demonstrates this “stop at nothing” due-diligence to be with the child, the more it is perverted by everyone involved as stalking or obsessive behavior. The perversion of the truth here of the most beautiful thing in nature, the bond between child and parent is consequently repackaged and promoted as the most scary and heinous of motivations. Kafka didn’t even come close to this egregious level of injustice when writing, “The Trial.”

Kill me. Destroy me. Destroy my reputation and legacy to anyone, but not to my children. Don’t hurt my child.

There’s piles of evidence that any relationship with a parent at a young age, even one you might disagree with is not a “danger” but a benefit. Estrangement is so detrimental to children. There’s so much research behind how important parental roles are in the lives of children that most American courts are afraid of the cost of separating a child from a situation even in which the child has been or could be physically or sexually abused. I knew of someone a few years ago who was sexually molesting his daughters, both toddlers. He went to jail for only a brief interlude-weeks at most, I think. (Should have been shot.) But somehow managed to get routine, supervised visitation with the children before the year was through. The courts obviously are no longer working in the child’s best interest.

But for thought crimes against the state religion, a parent gets alienation with zero regard for the wellbeing of the child in my friend’s case.

In times like these, one will often lean on family for support and healing from the trauma. Unfortunately, no one can really relate to my friend except another parent in the same boat.

I waited until I was 40 to walk away from my mother, because it seemed so important to establish some kind of healthy relationship there. I worked tirelessly until my final departure attempting to be big enough personally and emotionally to tolerate or deflect psychological manipulation and abuse perpetrated on me constantly by my mother. I did eventually achieve my aim of overcoming that abuse and maintaining our relationship for a time. It took energy, though, to maintain that level of high mindedness. To see the vile behavior and blame the disease while maintaining sympathy for the person, my mother.

Once I had kids, it became clear to me that my sympathies needed to go elsewhere. The energy of my focus as a mother to my children became more important to me than using that energy to mother my mother. I am learning little by little that using energy for things that are appreciative (in the broadest sense of the word) expand the amount of energy and resources one has to give. However, using the energy for things that are a trade off, a give and take or a sacrifice rather than an investment, dwindle emotional resources.

If you want boundless energy, the energy you burn has to be on things that increase your physical, financial, mental, emotional and spiritual portfolio.

“Don’t cast your pearls before swine,” taught the Master Teacher.

How can a mother or a father adopt such a callous perspective, though, about her or his own child? I’m harkening back to my friend’s case here. Whatever energy my friend funnels in the direction of the child becomes pig slop on account of the system.

In my friend’s case, things could never have gotten so out of hand in the court had my friend’s own family not been complicit. My friend’s father, mother, and even sisters all characterize my friend as being in deep need of emotional help since my friend started to learn that systems of government and medicine were run for profitable interests. The family insisted that anyone to disagree with beaurocrats in fields of governance or public health, who came to an understanding of untold world history, or anyone without a medical degree demonstrating a greater grasp of evidenced based research than the present health czars, well, that person must be stark raving mad. My friend learned a lot without going to school over the past 4 years- like many of us do in pursuit of knowledge. And one sibling of my friend said to me personally something to the effect of, “it’s just not possible that my sibling is well and knows what (my sibling) is saying. I knew my sibling before you and before (my friend) started questioning authorities and my sibling had it all together then.”

In my friend’s case, I asked the sibling why she believed my friend was mentally (not emotionally) incompetent to be looked upon with such blatant disregard. The family member responded that there was no disregard because her sibling, as this family member saw it, was once one of the most learned, intelligent and respectable people she knew. The bottom line question this family member did not want to answer was, “why do you not think the same now?” Why couldn’t your alleged mentally competent, learned, intelligent and respectable sibling grasp such greater knowledge than the authorities through intensive, bordering obsessive study? The answer I kept getting was, “well, that’s just not possible. I knew my sibling before, and I know my sibling now. My sibling is no longer happy and successful now and that’s because my sibling needs emotional help. Therefore I assume everything else my sibling is saying is wrong or crazy and anyone who disagrees with me is feeding into my sibling’s delusions.”

What if it’s because your sibling has been alienated from this child with your help? Why couldn’t that be the reason your sibling has become unhappy and unsuccessful? Have you ever lost a child to indifference? Do you think people just bounce back from that?

This sibling couldn’t grasp learning more than the authorities (having never personally bothered to try) so, therefore, my friend absent a medical degree, must also not be capable of such lofty aspirations as to know something or consider something the experts don’t or won’t. Thus, madness was the only acceptable conclusion that didn’t fuck with homegirl’s cognitive dissonance about being mind controlled by psychopaths.

Ironic that the saints in the halls of science and medicine, the ones scientific communities champion as having made some of the greatest discoveries of all time, Faraday, Einstein, Marie Curie, etc. were all considered in some way ill fit for their anti-establishment breakthroughs which made them famous. Many had never been to school, while others hadn’t been to the right schools. Still, droves were the wrong gender or skin color or had the wrong sexual preference to possibly be able to think for themselves. These are the ways the establishment has been railing against knowledge coming from outside their protected, exclusive, academic fortress for CENTURIES. In the last few years, a plumber came up with a heart valve in the US that could save countless lives and revolutionize the industry. Academia went into overkill to discredit and dismiss his amazing discovery knowing what they were doing, prolonging his ability to create patents or get his designs produced and into circulation would cost countless lives. That’s what the people of the fortress do. Yet, we still haven’t learned that the establishment can be and often is dead wrong.

There has never been such a gatekeeping around the field of science as there is today. Science is a method to get to truth. Science is a way to study. That method never changes. If we discover a former outcome false, we say that some premise in our former use of the method was false. In other words, up until some time, we made a hidden assumption that we refused to challenge or question that lead us to flawed outcomes. It was our wrong, and not science’s wrong. The method would say: question everything. Those with scientific breakthroughs throughout history merely questioned some assumption, some premise no one else would.

With my friend, we aren’t even talking about some major breakthrough. We aren’t talking about questioning an assumed scientific premise. We have been watching for going on three years consecutive what can only be described as fraudulent manipulation of public perception. The evidence in the case of respiratory viruses, colds, masks usage and vaccines designed for colds had long been clear and established. Leaders in the fields are lying about what has been demonstrated through the scientific method over and over. They are either pretending to not know, or they are just lying while telling people that the evidence is the opposite of what it is. They are attempting to claim the novelty of this virus is so special, it defies all logic, reason and collected evidence of how viruses worked since the dawn of time. They’ve been scrambling to produce new, biased trials, loaded with holes and flawed assumptions (tobacco science really) to manufacture the outcome they want of misdirecting people to one end: world domination through a biometric security state. They are sending the masses like a herd of cattle this direction and that. There’s no deep, hidden premise my friend questioned to come to some breakthrough conclusion. My friend just looked at what was discovered up to now and asked, “why are these people lying to us?”

There is no exquisite invisible thread, so novel that it defies the method of science and all the evidence collected to now. The clothes of the emperor made from this allegedly novel thread must not exist. I don’t see them, nor has anyone else witnessed proven evidence of their existence, not under a microscope, not anywhere. No one in the field sees this evidence. No one even tells us they see this direct evidence. They just keep saying, “assume the new threads are there and act exactly as we tell you or millions will die.” That’s a pretty bold fucking proposition much less assumption.

We have reached a precipice, ladies and gentlemen, wherein there will be a reckoning for the abandonment of scientific principles and methods in exchange for blind trust in politicians and corporate moguls. People have only started to pay this atonement for their lazy or reckless abandon of principles. There are food shortages, extreme uptick in non covid deaths as well as hospitalizations post vaccination, and record breaking inflation along with housing shortages. In some countries, people are experiencing mass starvation.

This is merely the beginning.

While few are reaching out after loss of health and life saying, “I am sorry that I didn’t listen,” the vast, vast majority are dying without question, just as they lived: never once looking at any of their faulty assumptions. They never noticed how life itself defied their assumptions. They refused reason and refused to reassess. This unquestioning attitude, touted by the gatekeepers under the hypnotic suggestion “trust the science” was supposed to protect us from the very disease many are still contracting at far greater numbers, being hospitalized at far greater numbers and dying from at far greater numbers than those who questioned. What does it mean?

But it’s worse than just negative efficacy for masks and vaccines in Covid deaths.

“Not questioning was supposed to bring me superior health, but I found out I am now dying or diagnosed with chronic deadly diseases out of the blue along with a bunch of my vaccinated friends who religiously wore masks. At least, thankfully, we aren’t dying from Covid, which hasn’t helped in our new found cancer, heart disease or brain disease treatments when we are now constantly getting sick with Covid.”

When will somebody ask, “was I wrong?”

I’m asking. I’m asking today because I have been sick more than I have been well this year. I was not vaccinated. I was pretty skeptical initially of second hand vax injury. Whatever I am getting hasn’t tested positive as Covid. I don’t regret refusing a now scientifically validated dubious attack on the immune system. The unthinking will suggest I am suffering sickness as I am now, albeit not from Covid, because I refused to get an injection which showed zero evidence of efficacy beyond a two week window for the very first strain of Covid, but also negative efficacy for any of its variants. Negative efficacy means the thing you are doing is actually making you MORE prone to disease, rather than less.

The boosters are now showing negative efficacy in most age groups except the elderly. Is this because the vaccine does actually work for the elderly or because the elderly and frail are less able to get out and get tested when sick? Getting tested as an older person seems especially pointless as they have taken what was touted as the Holy Grail vaccine. When a doctor sees sick elderly people who were vaccinated coming in for treatment, the doctor is more likely to believe the illness should be any other common, age related illness.

I drop these little golden nuggets, my pearls of wisdom I have collected over the years wherever I go. I even bring them up in my movie reviews because talking about a movie with a tribe of people seeking wisdom, greater understanding and knowledge could lead to a connection with an independent journalist or a deeper look at Ukraine or the tragedy of Peter Pan Syndrome. Our brains are super computers that make extraordinary connections that no AI has ever been able to achieve.

So it is with such mental connections and the spirit of re-evaluation of my own, long held beliefs that I am contemplating some low back contractions I have had lately. I call them contractions because the first time I had them was acutely in back labor with my first child. I felt them twice just after in two distinct heightened emotional states prior to leaving the hospital. I felt them slightly with the labor of my second son. The last time I experienced them, a trucker with bravado decided to play chicken with my parked car when my children and I were sitting in it in front of my husband’s business. I was dropping Aaron off at work, and he was quickly unloading his gear. The truckers thought they should only be the ones with exclusive access to my husband’s store front and only entrance. It was a whole fucking fiasco, not unlike what put that killdozer dude over the edge. I subsequently felt compelled to confront the trucker. I rarely find myself in the situation to holler curse words at strangers. It was after that confrontation that I most recently felt my back weaken.

Yesterday, I went to an Urgent Care with my kids in tow. They wanted my perfectly healthy kids to wear a mask inside so I could be seen. I couldn’t take the hypocrisy anymore of the medical establishment ignoring the scientific evidence of the failure of all these Covid guidelines. I started spewing references to medical studies showing that masks increased risk of Covid hospitalizations and deaths in European countries that mandated masks without exception. A construction worker, in his mask, waiting to be treated by people who don’t use the scientific method, kept telling me “thank you” in a very dismissive manner while encouraging me to leave. As I stood my ground, unburdening myself of my pearls of wisdom upon him my back started to contract. I continued on despite the contractions. All I could think was, “this is insane! People need to know the truth.” But the reality was, I looked like Typhoid Mary. My face was swollen up like a balloon. My eyes were bloodshot. My voice was raspy, and my sinuses were audibly blocked. I wasn’t going to get treatment because I wouldn’t make my kids wear a mask. To him, I was the crazy one. I am his number one fear. And that Dumbo’s feather he wears on his face is the talisman he has chosen to protect himself from evil spirits bearing wisdom and the cooties they carry- even if his talisman (according to all evidenced based research) does the opposite.

The more I carried on while looking like a monster with visible fluid sacks around both my red eyes from broken blood vessels, the more I looked like the true crazy person. I can see that in hindsight. The more I rattled on to people who were begging me to be quiet and go away in the nicest, most polite way they could, “thank you, thank you, please move on,” the more crazy and disrespectful I was being to their belief system.

We are dealing with a crazy cult here, folks. And their religion may be absolutely bonkers, flying spaghetti monster religion level nonsense (may you be touched by His noodly appendage), but we are still in civilized society called to respect the religious beliefs of others, no matter how absurd. I think the part where their Pastafarianism starts to affect us, when the city, county or state level legislates that we all follow their wacky religious rituals, that’s the time to speak out. When it’s a business, even if it’s the majority of an industry purporting we all need to comply with anti-scientific, cult like behavior, we need to be willing to take our business elsewhere. We need to have a back up plan to get around their absurdity. Ask yourself this: how good is a doctor to you anyway that’s requiring this religious ritual? In my case, they proved worthless.

For some reason, my back is still contracting today which suggests my body has something to say to me about this birthing process I am in. Low back issues, according to the mind body connection book I often refer to as the Bible of Health, “You Can Heal Your Life” by Louise Hay, represent fear about not being financially supported. My functional medicine doctor is the best at diagnosing and treating my acute health conditions. She doesn’t buy into Covid hysteria. She isn’t canonized into their church. Yet, at $200 minimum per phone call, her services are financially out of my reach. That’s the present futility of this situation as it stands. Emergencies may be rare for those of us who have learned the foundations of plant based medicine and nutrition. Still, society generally speaking and myself specifically need to start putting money into a savings account to call upon our trusted, non canonized doctors when we are in these emergency situations. We need to plan ahead or we will be at the whim of The Church of The Flying Spaghetti Monster and their deleterious practices. That feeling of being stuck because of a lack of finances in a futile situation is pretty frustrating, hopeless and even desperate. Perfect storm for back spasms.

We don’t cast our pearls amongst swine out of ignorance. We know those people are not listening to us. We know they aren’t capable of even hearing us. We act in this way out of sheer desperation, hopelessness, frustration and even a little madness. After all, isn’t it said that insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result?

I am thinking back to the story involving my friend. My friend isn’t crazy to believe that the authorities are wrong, but is clearly and obviously mad to believe the people who are the gatekeepers for the child they have alienated will ever be persuaded by knowledge, evidence, reason or science contrary to their Pastafarianism to reunite the child with the parent. It’s just not going to happen. These people base most of their behaviors on religious, hypnotic suggestion and the emotional appeals only of those who align with their shared religiosity.

There will be a reckoning, but it won’t be intellectual. No one in this stage of their religious beliefs has any sense of reason even to a fault. Like those in the People’s Temple cult, the majority are drinking the Kool-Aid.

The reckoning here is death. We can all only hope and pray my friend’s child survives the delinquency of the surrounding family and other gatekeepers. That seems to be the only chance at a return to normalcy in their alienated relationship.

In the meanwhile, God help us all.