I wrote that subtitle with hopes that writing this blog entry would give me the tools to carry on and it did.
I have been consuming detoxifying supplements all day every day to nausea for nearly two months. I had released 25lbs before the scale jumped back up to 150 (a 5lb increase), and it has been stuck there on this plateau for a week. I don’t want to take the supplements all day anymore. I am still tired often, and I sunk into a few unhealthy bad habits. One is binge watching TV programs. The other is staying up until the wee hours of the morning unable to fall asleep. Cortisol: my friends. I am a victim of outrageously high cortisol levels of my own making.
I can tell you what for me best reduces cortisol: PURPOSE.
Living a life of purpose, having steps I can take towards that purpose and getting to the next level in my personal growth or education while giving back to the world seems to be the best things for me personally to get my cortisol back in balance. As prolific as I had been last week on my blog, I have felt stuck. I can’t figure where I need to find my footing to climb back into my purpose. I feel a little hopeless, and as a result (maybe) my weight, too, has delivered a perfect condition for me to feel hopeless about.
I have been using my new sauna daily for the week and trying some other detoxifying baths which I documented. I also added detoxifying foot patches and enemas to my regimen. I would hope these would reflect positively in my health and my weight loss. So far, I am not seeing the rewards for my efforts.
This is usually my season to sparkle and shine. But, suddenly it feels more like the season to snooze.
So what can I do to turn it around?
In part, following the signs comes to mind. Despite a general malaise, I have been seeing copious amounts of uncanny synchronicity. As I am holding another vision board gathering in January, perhaps the messages and pictures are meant to be pasted onto my next vision board. As they come, I am bookmarking them. I need to create a digital folder to start collecting the images for print, well before my big vision board day.
I started getting my shirts designed. I did hit a deflating road bump yesterday as a font I desired was nowhere to be found, and a Fiverr attempt failed to yield the design I was looking for. Nonetheless, I will stick to my guns and plow forward anticipating the end result of people wearing Test+ Apparel is just around the bend. Knowing that those people using my clothes to send positive messages that unite them in their social scene with others who are defiantly optimistic at this time in history brings me a great sense of purpose. We have to find our tribe. It’s not enough to be pissed off at the system. We still have to redirect our attention to building the communities we desire. It is my deepest intention that these positive message shirts about dark topics will help us do just that.
After joining Adrian Salisbury’s Pro Video Academy, I will be taking his Ecamm Live exclusive Ecamm tutorial workshop starting in a week. Leave a message in the comments if you would like my affiliate link to join me. In this class, not only will I be learning this new platform, but I will also understand how to use all the myriad tools therein which will take my videos and interviews to professional studio quality. My ultimate dream is to teach everything I learn via writing and video about setting boundaries for myself and others with love and purpose. I want those videos as visually appealing as they are packed with valuable content.
In a very “meta” way, I am teaching this already. I want to lose weight. I have revealed that my loss of progress with weight loss is related to elevated cortisol levels. I have revealed that my cortisol goes up from TV binging, lack of sleep and stress. Rather than just trying to put a boundary around TV or going to bed on time (something to fight against), I found the root cause of my sense of unfulfillment: lack of purpose. After restating my purpose, I have something to fight for and say “yes” to! I listed 3 things that I can do to connect or reconnect with my sense of purpose, and I shared them with all of my followers as a way to keep myself accountable. Now, I will no longer fight binge watching TV and going to bed on time. Rather, I will be working towards my goals, and my time will be managed more wisely without any use of force or willpower.
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