Many may know me as a potty mouthed, anarchy activist, but most of you don’t know I studied a spiritual philosophy for years with the intention of becoming a minister. Something about my potty mouth and my tell-all honesty about my sexuality, was a bit much for the church I attended to accept me into the fold as one of their spiritual leaders. Apparently, it’s bold if you are saying the same things I was saying about being in a gay relationship, but talking about finding sexual satisfaction in a heterosexual relationship was a big no-no. My teacher and pastor at the time tried so hard to discourage me from my openness about my sexuality, she seriously crossed a line. I talked about my sexual fulfillment and my celebration in finding a great partnership with the man who later became my husband, and my minister compared this to someone in the church who had been accused of sexual misconduct and predatory behavior toward women in his counsel. Again, had I found sexual fulfillment with a woman, none of my celebration of such would have been an issue for them. As a person with pansexual proclivities, I found this outlook rather bigoted. The comparison to a sexual predator was uncalled for and inappropriate. At the time I was deeply hurt. The situation I was put in, being asked under duress to “admit my behavior was a direct violation to others” was just wrong, so I ultimately left the church. I quit the ministry program just before graduation, made a baby with Aaron and got married.
The ministry program I was in and the study of prayer, almost as a science, never went away from me. It has aided me in all areas of my day to day life. I still use it. I still celebrate anyone finding healthy sexual fulfillment. I still have a potty mouth. I still have a raunchy sense of humor. That’s me. Doing my thang.
My former mentor and pastor was later run out of the church for psychologically abusing others, falsely portraying herself as a trained clinical psychologist and mentally manipulating several other congregants under the guise of giving them spiritual counsel.
I continued to have a calling to help others through ministry. Yet, I held a sort of trauma from being taken into a private meeting where my minister debased me and compared me to a sexual predator to coerce a certain “good girl” behavior out of me. For that and the lack of a formal graduation and certification, it has taken me a very long time to consider a role in ministry for myself again and how that might fit into my life going forward.
All this to say, from this day forward, I will be dropping prayers aka spiritual mind treatments in my blogs, videos and on my social media pages from time to time. It is time. I need to do what I am called to do.
Spiritual mind treatment is a form of affirmative prayer to get one’s mind in alignment with universal and spiritual truths. If done correctly, the prayer helps one see from a higher perspective. It can foster intentional and clear manifestation uninhibited by errant thoughts of lack, limitation or separation from Divine guidance.
Today, I’ll offer a prayer about a friend who is healing from inflammation. I never pray “for” people as they do not “need” my prayers. Their healing is already known in the mind of God. If it wasn’t, I wouldn’t have the insight to know the truth and to clear up any confusion or misunderstanding about this. When I pray about someone, it is because everything I am saying in prayer is already the truth of who they are at their essence. The prayer is merely a reminder or a statement affirming our essence. It’s not something I am doing. It’s just something I am knowing about who God is and who I am, you are, he is or she is in God. If someone seems to be unwell or in need of healing, it is likely some mental aberration or misunderstanding is perhaps clouding a view of manifestation of this person’s experience as a well BEING. This is the root of when and why affirmative prayer is used.
So, here it is.
Prayer on the healing of inflammation, April 4th, 2022.
I know there is a Spirit of Peace present and available at all times. I feel it when I walk in nature. The Grace of the Spirit overcomes me as I lay down to rest. It helps my body to surrender into utter peace: the ideal environment for healing. I can sense the peace of the Spirit as the calm before and after a storm. It is the space out of which all sound and emotions arise from and then dissipate into. All form springs from this void and the forms are of God and the void is of God.
Today, I recognize this Spirit of Peace, the formless void as my factory default setting. I can relax into this formless, shapeless space of peace and tranquility. I can allow my mind and body to heal as they return to this space. The truth of this health and well BEING in, as and through me is seeking revelation. I am surrendering to this ongoing power and presence within me, to know peace as my essential nature.
As I know this is the absolute truth of my essence, I know, too, this is the truth of all. Everyone is a facet of the Divine Spirit of Peace seeking fulfillment in the most glorious, unique and individual forms. It is a culmination of unsettled noises and forms coming back to rest. It is the end of a stirring and provocative dance, finding its climax before its finale. It is the phase of the petals falling off the perennials before wilting and coming to the end of its season. Ashes to ashes and dust to dust. This is not the end of life. For below the surface, roots are continuously expanding and maturing for an even greater bloom. I rest in this time of cooling, this time of nurturance and regeneration. I rest. We all rest. We all release. We all allow our supplication to the hidden force of peace below the surface working its magic on our bodies and minds. It is clearing and restoring us to our default settings.
I welcome this time. I allow the inner rest to emerge as I release the forms of seeming chaos and disorder knowing peace is always at hand. I know inflammation and pain are just a part of the process of healing and restoration, and as I give in to them, in supplication, those stages of healing melt away. Coolness can emerge. Calmness can emerge. Gentleness is my experience. Grace is my experience. It is here now, for me and for all.
I give thanks to the Spirit of Peace within me for resetting my mind and body to align with Its nature. I give thanks to the Spirit for recalibrating the body of my dear and beloved to her natural settings of grace and peace.
I release this Word into manifestation knowing it is already unfolding perfectly. I remove any hindrances to this unfoldment my mind may have errantly created. And I acknowledge these truths in gratitude and harmony. I AM whole, perfect and complete. I surrender to this knowing for myself and for all. In reflection of the One, I know that this manifestation is already so, already apparent, already destined to become experience in perfect time and measure.
And so it is.
Amen.