Well, there’s 5 days left before my surgery, and through this period, I am focused entirely on my physical health and mindset. As it is November, I have started a gratitude challenge. I am counting down from the 1st to the 30th with what I am grateful for each day, attempting for 30 days not to repeat what I have been thankful for on the days prior. I had 30 things I was grateful for on the 1st, and as each day gets closer to the 30th, I drop one space off my list. This will lead me to just one item to be grateful for on the last day of the month. Seemed like a fun and uplifting challenge for me, especially leading up to my surgery.
I also started Scott Horton’s new book, “Enough Already.” I read to myself, often out loud while I sweat it out in my sauna each day. I find it centering regardless of the heaviness of the topics I read about. I also am reading the scrolls again from Og Mandino’s book, “The Greatest Salesman on Earth.” The scroll this month is The Scroll Marked III on determination and persistence which I read aloud daily- also while in the sauna.
Now, the “bad” news.
As of Monday, I was made aware that I have a pretty aggressive C-Diff infection. C-Diff is a highly contagious bacterial infection primarily picked up by old people and infants through spores in feces. I haven’t been around either of those groups. I was not happy to find out I have this, but it does explain why I was running to the bathroom like Joe Biden in the Vatican. Yeah, I can’t even laugh at those memes since I had become a bit incontinent myself- if only for the past week. Unfortunately, the primary treatment is to avoid most antibiotics which is impossible with a surgery coming up. The quickest route of recovery is oddly a specific antibiotic called Metronadizole. I got a prescription for it a couple months ago to fight the H-pylori. At the time it made me so ill, I had to discontinue it and just do herbal remedies. In this case, with my surgery pending, I seem to have little choice in the matter. With my doctor appointment Monday, I was given 7 days to clear the infection before surgery. Luckily, I had the stuff on hand in my cupboard with the prescription to refill. So, I can slog through the side effects which with the prayers of everyone on social media have been miniscule. So far, I have only experienced constant nausea-which beats incontinence, and complete short term memory loss. My dear friend, Tuesday suggested I sip peppermint tea which seems to be helping with the nausea in addition to my digestive blend oil capsules I was already taking.
Starting today, I will also be using a specific probiotic as well as a garlic supplement to combat the C-Diff. This is a multipronged attack.
To elevate my mindset, I have been receiving prayer requests which I love. They help me center myself as much as anyone else. I have also been doing some EFT to prepare myself for the surgery. I am still going through periods of immense fear about being under anesthesia. I wish I had magic mushrooms for those moments. They would snap me right out of that.
My single activity for today is going to the DMV in Utah to get myself a Utah driver’s license, something I have been resisting up to now. My VA license is set to expire by my birthday on the 17th. However, with so many places requesting a form of ID, and that being the most accepted one, I am biting the bullet and getting it done. My husband informed me that the State of Utah requires an exam to receive a license, and this is the tricky part. My short term memory has been a struggle. Even though it’s open book, it took my husband over an hour to complete, and he described the book information to test questions as being “not very cut and dry.”
Will I have the mental acuity while on this medication? I hope so.
The DMV is also not known for being the most peaceful place on earth. Anywhere one is beholden to government officials can be uncomfortable. I look forward to the challenge of making it my peaceful place, at least for me and for today.
I better wrap up this journal entry with a nice positive affirmation for everyone, so I can get to the DMV. This will also be my mantra for the duration in the DMV today, and it’s one of my favorite slogans since the beginning of the magic cootie crisis.
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